It’s finally getting warmer, sunnier and brighter in my room and I’ve been extremely productive because of this. Weather really does change my personality. I am so much more active and committed to everything. I haven’t skipped classes the past few weeks and I’m already on top of all my final projects for the semester. Thank goodness. I hope I pass all my classes, I’ve skipped about 5 at most for most of my classes. Yea, I should be failing by now but somehow I’m getting around it to innocently passing them all… Miracles happen? Painting class has been a big bitch this semester but for the first time, it was one of the most challenging or pushing studio I’ve taken. This is ironic because painting classes in my opinion are such a waste of time because all we are taught to do is read other artists, paint what we feel, and critique. I hate reading about other artists, and I hate being critiqued on things I know my classmates don’t actually care about after the critique session. Once, one of my painting teachers told me that to go to art school is to purchase time. I agreed at the time, but having taken other studio classes, I realized that that was the stupidest thing I have ever heard! I hate painting. I loved it for a little bit, but I wouldn’t love it anymore enough to take classes for it. I’m done. I’m moving on and that’s good. I took printmaking last semester but that wasn’t my favorite either. The most productive studio I’ve taken so far has got to be Fibers. I’ve always loved attaching objects on my canvas and so on, it was definitely a hard shift going from 2D (canvas and painting) to the 3D world but once I got the hang of it, I was bored with painting. Paintings are great but for me personally, it doesn’t express my thoughts enough. I need texture, interaction and more sensual effects rather than visionary stuff. Colors don’t do me enough. For next semester, I’ve signed up for ceramics. I’m super pumped and I can’t wait for when I take Molding and Casting in the future. I feel lucky that my major is Art Therapy. I’m given all these opportunities to try out different studio classes (as long as they are hands-on kind of activities). I get to play around with different media and experience how each of them affect my emotions. While that, I get to take my beloved psychology classes. I really am obsessed with this one psychology teacher I’ve taken 2 semesters in a row. He’s amazing and I can’t wait for my next psychology class with him next semester…
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日本語で打ちます。パソコンで打つだけでも、漢字の勉強と用語の勉強になることを発見！最近は、ママとスカイプで話すこととチャットを毎日するようにしてます。木曜日仕事のあと、やっと飛行機の格安チケットをゲットすることができました！二月ぐらいからずっと値段をチェックしてたのですが、四月からの割引で４００＄も安くなりました！待った甲斐があった．．．ひと安心。;-) でも学校と家とのいろいろで、ストレスは増えるばかり。先週出すはずだったエッセイは、一週間も期限を延ばしてもらったのですが結局、今週の金曜日まで始められませんでした。金曜日は、友達の誕生日パーティーをあきらめて、エッセイを書くはずが、なかなか始めらませんでした。:cry: でも昨日の夜中一時頃、やっとプレッシャーをドップリと感じ、一、二行書き始めることができました。でもまた音楽を聞いたり友達と話したりしながらギブアップ。腹が立ちながら朝まで絵を書いたり新しい音楽を探したり．．そしてやっと日の出を見て感動した後に５時間かけて、あっと言う間にエッセイが書けてしまいました。なんだか最近は、motivation （辞書：動機を与えるもの？）がなくて宿題が全然進みません。早く飛行機に乗って、家の空気を吸いたいです。家は、今自分にとってどこかは、分からない。でも、誰にとっても場所は関係なく家族といることが、体と心にとって一番の治療だと思う。
今、一番喜ばせてくれるもの、でも同じく一番腹が立つものは、昔の写真です。私の恐怖は、昔から離れず、いつも昔のことを考えてしまう習慣がついてしまうことです。なるべく悲しくなったり、落ち込んでるときには、今のことを考えて、今のことで満足しようと意識しようと頑張ってるんだけど、そうすると将来のことをばかり考えだしまい、また落ち着かなくなります。今を”今”と感じることがあまりできない？この頃は、無駄に心配ばかりしたり、また反対に楽観的に考えようとする毎日です。この文章は、訳をするのがとてもむずかしかったです。英語で言うと： I seem to be wasting my time worrying, while at the same time I am looking for comfort everyday. でもこれも本当は、楽しいのかもしれません。もし今、一人じゃなかったら、もっと怖いことかもしれない。今、人を頼りにしていたら、もっといろいろと焦ってしまうかもしれない。今、前に見えるものは、時間と自分の影。
自分のペースを見つけたい。
悩み事のあとには、明るいニュース！授業の作品は、盗まれてしまったけど一応先生は、優しく対応してくれました！再度チャンスをくれたので新しい作品を今頑張って描いています。あと、アートセラピーの授業では、『瞑想の座布団』をぬっています。夏休みの初めごろに写真を載せます。終！
PS．:( 一番認めたくないこと：iPhone は、やっぱりスゴい！！！！！
That felt like the longest post of my entire blogging life. This is a proof that I am in fact a native Japanese! Hahahahhahaa I TRY.
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I haven’t written in here for the longest time. A lot has happened. Last weekend, my best friend from about 4 or 5 years ago came to visit me in Chicago and honestly I had one of the happiest weeks of my life. It’s a strange feeling, it’s either I’m really not fully adjusted to where I am now, or that my childhood was just reliving the past and felt comfortable feeling like everything is still 5 years ago. With Rosie, I feel so honest and so open about my life while since college, I haven’t been open completely to one person. I’ve opened up myself in different parts to different people – if only these people I’ve opened up to and connected to could be one person. Best friends really are the rarest gifts in this world. I can’t even explain how thankful I am for this really strong friendship that I have with Rosie.
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Really. Don’t say sorry when you claim to have had little contribution in it and feel that it was non of your business. Why bother?
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Kaori Ikeda
